Monday, February 16, 2009, 10:46 PM
well i was gonna blog about how happy and in a gd mood i was today..
till i came home
she accuses me of everything..
barges into my room screaming nonsense
goes through my stuff when im out
she ruins everything
its funny how she can ruin a whole day of gd mood and happiness with just a few words
you people out there dun even know how depressed i actually am
i've thoguht of suicide MANY times.
all of them thanks to her.
being 18 gives different meaning to me right now
normally i wud say its the age where i can finally drive myself
now i'd say its the age where i can run away from home and they cant send me to court for it.
or report me.
or even better yet.
for me to commit suicide and for nobody to be able to do anything.
am i such a bad person?
that when i say something.
nobody believes me?
especially my own mother?
as much as i have never believed shes my actual mother
at this point.
if she says i was adopted or my fathers scandalous daughter from an affair
or better yet.
that she found me in a dumpster or by the roadside
i honestly honestly wouldnt be surprised
AT ALL
yay.. happy 18th birthday to me..
have another horrible year, self.