Wednesday, March 26, 2008, 4:54 PM
since my 2 friends are doing this, n i think its a god idea too, i'll do it.. here goes..
WRITE TEN STATEMENTS, INTENDED TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE- THINGS YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO TELL THEM.NEVER TELL WHICH ONE IS TO WHOM.
1) you are the only one who I tell everything to, every time i feel hurt everytime i felt betrayed. and ur one of the extremely few people who noe the real me.
2) eventhough u tell me im ur bestfriend, i sumtimes feel if we were more destined to be enemies. ur words cut me but then so do mine. it seems we hurt each other more than we help. im sorry to say i only pretended tt u were my bestfriend.
3) i have never hated you, even when u betrayed me. u hurt me u sadden me u angered me. but i hav never felt hatred for u.. i still love you.. but it will never be the same again.
4) we've been there for each other throughout the years but i always felt tt u were sometimes hostile towards me. ur comments hurt me deeply sumtimes but i pretended tt they ddidnt.. its alright... i will never leave you.
5) since the day i was born you bullied me, tortured me n did as you please... WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I EVER DONE TO YOU? LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE!!!! IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR???
6) you understand me so well... we are alike yet we are different :D tts wat i love so much about you.. your not like the others... you make my heart leap in joy. thank you
i miss you everyday whether you are there or not even if u are gone for a short moment.
7) you suffer so much at home yt you are truly loved. i pity u for the sufferings but i envy the love u get. n i truly respect you for you understand to receive love is to endure hate n anger as well.
8) you are still the only one i have eve knwon in my whole life who tells me likes it is :D we may no longer be the best of friends but u will always be remembered as the best of my friends
9) our officila tie claim us to be the closest compared to other relationships, but i feel as if u put others above me. as if ou special bond doesnt matter. it hurts n i know u thought i was only joking when i told u. n yet i guard ur deepest darkest secret till the day i die.
10) you are the most innocent person i hav ever knwon yet u are also one of the people i know tt hav suffered so much. never lose ur innocence.
whew... it al sounds so cryptic.. hahahaha gd luck finding out which statements are to whom.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008, 10:16 PM
eh... shit forgot wat to type out.. lol...
hmm.. lets see.. well toked to sam today told him bout sumthing someone said to me ytd..
he said nt to listen to such hurtful comments.. there was much more to our conversation but i wont type everything here.. ahahha just tt it lead to him scolding me n me sort of leaking a few tears...
anyway ytd me liyana n izza pi bugis (first), i bought a backpack.. liyana contemplated buying one but didnt... then we went to ngee ann cityn into kinokuniya.. liyana bought the book can you keep a secret? n after much prodding from the two of them i bought the book hot mama by jennifer estep.. hahhaa its abt superhero wiith powers n stuff.. kinda like a comic except wif no pictures n more words hahaha... then went into takashimaya.... walked ard alot.. finally landed in the cosmetics area n i bought a bobbi brown mascara n shu uemura's facial cleanser... cost $93 in total... bobbi brown's black eyeliner wasnt in stock so i ended up buying the facial cleanser instead of the eyeliner...
n now.. im broke.. well liyana still owe me $10 but i ask her to keep for me until saturday when we're going to this event.. sori boy n girls.. we cant tell u :D but once it's over we'll tell u... its our little secret now huh liyana? hehehee...
n now i shall sign off.. hahaha i think i've vented enuf for today... my fingers tired lah...
oh yea... in addition to the stuff i bought yesterday.. a few days ago i bought 2 new books... a little black dress book titled how to sleep with a movie star and harry potter and the deathly hallows.. hahaha.. cudnt resist it.. it was $60 a few days previously.. n it was going for $20 :D:D:D:D u cud imagine how happy i was..
yea.. n the tirade ends here hahaha... buaix!!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008, 6:35 PM
[tis particular blog post will only be understood by a few people..]
hey.. i told u i dun like him.. i noe its not rational sincei never even tok to himbefore.. but u of all people hsud understand tt i get this feelings things... n im nearly always right...
look watever ok.. u noe it takes alot to anger me.. n i mean relly anger me.. im kinda pissed off at u but mostly resigned.. if u wan to hate me fine.. its up to u.. like u said.. ur life ur decisions ur risks... u asked fo rmy opinion n i gave it to u honestly n without judgement... tt does not mean u can judge me on my opinions given.. u asked for it n u got it...
hate me if u wanna... i dun giv a fucking shit
Friday, March 7, 2008, 9:08 PM
okie update.. hahaha..
ytd Ayu saw Sam topless n her jaw dropped the moment he took off his shirt and she was like OMFG!! hawt siak!! ahahaha... then she typed to sam n said cpver urself plspslplspls.. n sam was laughing when he put his shirt back on nhe asked y.. n i typed back saying ayu was drooling too much.. i think she felt guilty at looking at ur body while drooling when she has a bf.. hahahahahaha...
anyway.. today galvin is freaking me out again.. n sam doesnt believe me..
its ok honey.. i noe its very hard to believe me.. but then again u didnt believe in ghosts in the first place.. hahah.. its ok..
oh well.. remember ur promise ot me abt tmr k Sam-my?? hahaha sori abt tonight..
n it was very sweet of u to say tt the onlythings u look forward to every day is talking to men sleep hahaha... oh wells.. tts abt it for updates hahaha
Wednesday, March 5, 2008, 8:14 PM
SAM IS NOW MY BOYFRIEND!!! OMFG!!!ITS OFFICIAL!!!need i say more?
n yes.. i think sam's reading this.. >.>
3:55 PM
FYI... if u guys reread some posts below n it seem dff.. tts coz it is..i edited some of it.. *peace*
hahahaha aytes..
anyways.. woi!!! saturday girls day in at dian's hse.. her parents are overseas for the weekend... so it party time!!!!
its for su n ain's b'day celebration anyway... tell me wat u guys wanna eat..if u guys wan my famous brownies or cookeis tell me earlier so i can make.. plus i bringing some movies ayte?
Monday, March 3, 2008, 9:16 PM
hey guys. i noe.. long time havent update..
anyways.. update..
YESTERDAY:- i gt pickpocketed by an asshole n my handphone was stolen... my abg gav me his o2 PDA phone which he has never used before.. im still using the same number, 98179276 but i lost all my contacts...
TODAY:- went to lib wif liyana.. lepaks at the cafe galile.. i asked her bring her laptop.. since i t gt webcam n mike.. so i can tok to SAM!!! woo.. he's soo *panas*. in my opinion anyway.. haha when he smile.. i so totally cair.. *sigh* hahaha.. last night pun chat wif sam.. he turn on his webcam for me to see him.. he was topless!!! badan hot sak... *cair* hahahaha. n he thinks im *ehems* faham2 jer lah.. wow!! first time seh... hahahaha
n now i asking liyana if she can go out tmr.. then she say im addicted to sam hahahaha.. honey.. sesungguhnya aku tak kisah kalau dier drug n akuddicted ngan dier hahahaha.... now its been 4 hrs since i tok to him.. n aku rindu dier!!! he's sick today.. so i told him to go to bed early... plus he gt sch tmr.. poor thing... hahahha